Regarding Step Two
OK, here’s a little old Eric for you, just because I can’t help it: Fuck PDFs that prohibit copy and pasting. Really AA? I can’t copy and paste stuff from the 12 x 12? Do you think that helps us to achieve our primary purpose? I think not. Now I have to type this shit in, goddammit. Sigh. Fine. Here’s what I have to remember about step 2. At least half of us are in the same boat as I am. I suspect few of us walk into a meeting and say, I’m totally ready to embrace a 180 degree change from the perspective on God that I have held for the last 40 years. But that’s OK. As the 12 x 12 tells me, I don’t have to do anything, and I sure as hell don’t have to do anything right away. For me, right now, the important thing is that I’m open to an HP, and looking for his presence in my life.
“First, AA does not demand that you believe anything. All of its Twelve Steps are but suggestions. Second, to get sober and to stay sober, you don’t have to swallow all of Step Two right now… Third, all you really need is a truly open mind. Just resign from the debating society and quit bothering yourself with such deep questions…”
At some point I will be able to offer my resignation to the debating society. As the world’s most enthusiastic member of the debating society, this is no small order for me. If I can ever truly get over my desire to debate everything, people should watch out, because the apocalypse is soon to follow. Having said that, my urge to fight is kind of like my urge to drink. I can’t conceive of it in terms of forever. But I can probably avoid the debate until I go to sleep tonight, and that’s probably all I need to do right now.
I hope all y’all out there in sober land are not only clearheaded, but happy too. And at peace. The debating society is not a peaceful place. I can tell you that with 100% certainty.