A change in perspective

by erics1100paces

It’s odd.  I know I’ve heard this many times the last few months, in various forms, but it wasn’t until I listened to Sandy B. this morning that it stuck.

I don’t have a problem with alcohol.  I have a problem with sobriety.  Alcohol is the solution to being me.  It’s a solution that no longer works.  It’s a solution that became worse than the problem.  And I have only two choices.  Find a new solution (AA) or die and do great damage to my loved ones continuing the old solution.

Obviously sobriety is the problem.  Otherwise I would not have this compulsion to get fucked up all the time.  It seems so obvious, and I can’t understand why I never figured that out.