Not resentful, but mad at myself
So I wasn’t paying attention to the dates, and it turns out I committed to a full day – 7AM -9PM – on a work project on Saturday. A lot of people are impacted by this, and it’s more or less impossible for me to pull out now. I land Friday midday. I need to do the prep work for this project before I land, or else I’ll have to do it Friday evening. I keep spinning around in my head on this, but there’s no place for the blame to land but squarely on my shoulders. I’m annoyed because I wanted to spend the day with my family. I’m annoyed because I wanted to go to my homegroup meeting Saturday morning. Both those things will have to wait until Sunday.
I’ll take this as a last, best lesson that I need to start managing boundaries.
Update: No time like the present to start managing boundaries. I wrote some emails and it looks like I can get someone else to handle this after all. A couple of lessons here. One, I’m not actually that indispensable. I wasn’t committed to play a particularly central role in this event, and other people can do what I was slated to do. Two, if I make a mistake like this, and ask for help in fixing the problem, people are remarkably accommodating.