Middle Ground

by erics1100paces

So I’ve been living in something of a middle ground – not sober by most definitions, but no alcohol.  It’s… a compromise, and not wholly satisfying.   I smoke pot, and the addy lets me achieve.  It’s not peaceful like total sobriety could sometimes be, but it requires less effort.

A practicing alcoholic has a destination, if nothing else.  He knows that alcohol waits at the end of day.

For those of us who’ve given it up, there’s a certain bleakness in losing that destination.  Pot helps with that, but it also increases feelings of shame and anxiety.

There’s no panacea.  Attaining a happy and fulfilled life is difficult.